My whole I was never truely liked as a friend. All throughout Elementry school I didnt have any real friends. The only reason I was ever invited to people houses and birthday parties was because their parents made them, I would end up in trouble and go home early.
Then when jr high came around was about the time I became a hard core christian girl. A little bit too hard core if that makes sence. which limited me to the friends I made. none of which were best friends. I did get the chance to make friends who wanted to be around me. but I know it got annoying being my friend, and people wouldnt put up with me most of the time. I was too goody goody but thats who I was. It was the first time in my life that I was invited to peoples house alone, just the two of us. which was great. but not one person was my best friend. I had lots of friends tho. the ones that come and go. when your around your friends but not like talking on the phone all day or anything.
then highschool came and I figured that my life would be the same. have lots of friends but nothing huge. I watched my sister with her bestfriends and I wanted that. but I couldnt achieve it really. I had talked to my friend who said her friend Cassandra was comming to our school and stuff. I finially met Cassandra and became friends, she became bestfriend with my friend steph. then Soccer came around and the three of us clicked. Once Cassandra and I realized just how close we lived to one another we started to hang out alot more. Once Summer came around we became unseperable. We spent literally every waking moment together. I slept at her house or she slept at my house. it was kinda like wehrever we ended up at night. we lived one track away from eachother. It was rare that either of us spent time with someone else. She was exactly what Id been waiting my whole life for. that girl who would be my bestfriend. my equal. never judging, always loving.
We were practlically the same person. for years. 4 years of highschool and a few years of college. we had a small fall out when we both fell in love with our now husbands. we had a hard time at first. it wasnt realy jelousy, but it was confusing for us. not to be eachothers number one anymore. During our seperation we became different people, we let ourselves go for our lovers. once we finally becamse whole again we found our way back into eachothers lives. (all i needed to do was get someone to steal cass car) haha.
so thats my life, Cassandra really did save my life. seriously, I had nothing before. friends who ment little. once who came and went. Its hard to believe in a real relationship when you cant even find one in friends. and once Cas came and we became sisters, tats when we knew it was possible to find our one true loves, if you can have this kind of relationship with someone, we knew exactly who we were looking for to fall in love with. its like we didnt even have to look. cause we have this perfect friendship... and when a guy comes along and starts a relationsihp we already have something to compare it too. and if it doesnt overcome the relationship cas and i have together we could never let ourselves fall in love. We had random boyfriend, non tat stuck because it never outdid what we already had with eachother, once she met David and i met Danie it happened so fast. all because Cassandra came into my life and became my everylasting true bestfriend, I owe her alot.
Cassandra is amazing, anyone who gets to meet her is lucky. she deserves everything. I wish with all my heart I could give her everything she needs. and wants. I wish I could give her children. If I were at a different point in my life, finished having kids already, I would hands down do EVERYTHING in my power to make sure she gets kids. I would be willing to hold her children for her. I know it wouldnt be the same, but it would be something I could do. I wish I could just push a button and make it happen. give her all the blessings she wants in her life. I believe with my whole heart that she will give birth. I really do. It might not be soon, but I just know it.
so thats my blog about my life, and what Cassandra did to it. how she saved it.
Monday, December 8, 2008
sweet loving
hi, my name is Jamie and Im a blogger.
So I FINALLY went to social security today to get my name changed. Once I get my new social security card I will go to the DMV and change my address and name. and change my name and adress on my Cosmo License. only 2 years later haha. I suck. haha. oops. oh well, at least im doing it right? Im pretty excited actually. I went in... changed the social and walked out Jamie Sparks. crazy. she didnt even ask me for any photo ID. I told her my social number, gave her the marriage certificate and then she just changed it. no questions asked. no wonder its easy to steal peoples identity. I could hav emade up the license.... and then just became someone else.
Mrs. Jamie Le Sparks. thats me. :]
so lately I have been feeling myself ovulate. like for the past few months. like a week and a half after my period I feel my ovaries (i dont know how to spell it) moving and bouncing around. like right now. and I looked up when i would be ovulating (not that it will be exact or anything) but it says i am. but i already knew it from my tummy. and of couse while i was cruzing the waves of ovulation and of course clicked due date. haha. end of august-begining of september. haha. just for you cas. :] haha.
So I FINALLY went to social security today to get my name changed. Once I get my new social security card I will go to the DMV and change my address and name. and change my name and adress on my Cosmo License. only 2 years later haha. I suck. haha. oops. oh well, at least im doing it right? Im pretty excited actually. I went in... changed the social and walked out Jamie Sparks. crazy. she didnt even ask me for any photo ID. I told her my social number, gave her the marriage certificate and then she just changed it. no questions asked. no wonder its easy to steal peoples identity. I could hav emade up the license.... and then just became someone else.
Mrs. Jamie Le Sparks. thats me. :]
so lately I have been feeling myself ovulate. like for the past few months. like a week and a half after my period I feel my ovaries (i dont know how to spell it) moving and bouncing around. like right now. and I looked up when i would be ovulating (not that it will be exact or anything) but it says i am. but i already knew it from my tummy. and of couse while i was cruzing the waves of ovulation and of course clicked due date. haha. end of august-begining of september. haha. just for you cas. :] haha.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
we started our diet today. this is what we ate
breakfast= vanilla and bananna shake
snack= small yellow apple
Lunch= vanilla shake with half an apple
snack= string cheese
Dinner= Chicken Parmesan with one slice of wheat toast
I am very hopeful for this diet.
after loosing the unwanted pounds haha
i just want to learn whats healthy and whats not.
how to live a healthy lifstyle.
happy dieting...
breakfast= vanilla and bananna shake
snack= small yellow apple
Lunch= vanilla shake with half an apple
snack= string cheese
Dinner= Chicken Parmesan with one slice of wheat toast
I am very hopeful for this diet.
after loosing the unwanted pounds haha
i just want to learn whats healthy and whats not.
how to live a healthy lifstyle.
happy dieting...
Saturday, November 1, 2008
lets get together... yeah yeah yeah
I am going to be doing my sisters diet this time around. I would like to loose 20-30lbs. I was 120lbs in highschool looking my best. now i am 166. Id like to be like 130ish. brenda says i should be 140. Ideally I will be 130 of PURE MUSCLE! hahaha. riiight. well I can hope. Brenda says if i do the diet exactly then it will take me 4 months. we are going to start as soon as possible. once we get all the info and products and food we need. I am really excited actually. I see how my sister is looking. and I see my dad getting muscle. so it inspires me to do well also. so i am going to devote myself to do this and be as healthy as possible. also getting to excersize here and there. like walkting around during lunch at work while drinking my shake. and taking a walk with daniel at night or in the morning (probably at night tho).
what i want is to A. be healthly for my future kid having and everything. and B. look great again. not that ithink i look really bad but id love to be back into that perfect healthy look. it doesnt matter what people say. when you look in the mirror and your not excited. its your opinion that matters most ya know? so ya. I am happy to be healthy and live a healthy lifestyle.
so work was picking up this week. from last week with one client ALL WEEK to today I had 4 people, yesterday i had 3-4 and the day before that i had a few... and so on and so forth. this week was much better. I needed it. defenitly. i love tips! haha. go out! WHOO HOO!
anywhooo... soon enough i am gunna be one slim mean loosing weight machine. haha
what i want is to A. be healthly for my future kid having and everything. and B. look great again. not that ithink i look really bad but id love to be back into that perfect healthy look. it doesnt matter what people say. when you look in the mirror and your not excited. its your opinion that matters most ya know? so ya. I am happy to be healthy and live a healthy lifestyle.
so work was picking up this week. from last week with one client ALL WEEK to today I had 4 people, yesterday i had 3-4 and the day before that i had a few... and so on and so forth. this week was much better. I needed it. defenitly. i love tips! haha. go out! WHOO HOO!
anywhooo... soon enough i am gunna be one slim mean loosing weight machine. haha
Thursday, October 30, 2008
sucky blogger!
here i go here i go here i go again...
lets see here. I am so worried for alison right now. I feel ike she is falling for himbig time. I see how she looks at him and goo goo gah gahs over him and is slowly falling for him. and it worries me that he is around for the baby. I see him in LOVE with being a father. I just really hope that he is the real father. I am worried he isnt tho. really worried. that when the results come back... it they are negative. I worry he'll go back to his life. saddened. very sad. getting a glimps of what could be. and it being taken away.
like... in my opinion. I wish they would just decide to make it known and forget the tests. just be mother and father. ya know? A. you dont have to stress. B. he'd be a great father. C. the familys will be happy
I am hoping for the best. I think the baby is his. but then again... i have not seen a picture of the other person. so far... he isnt manly enough to stand up and be a man. so... i dont know about that.
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ef to the are to the eee to the ee........ FREE! lalala.
so to become a manager i have all of these videos at work to watch. oh joy. ill start those soon.
alright... out of things to write and im watching a show. bye! i suck at blogging!
lets see here. I am so worried for alison right now. I feel ike she is falling for himbig time. I see how she looks at him and goo goo gah gahs over him and is slowly falling for him. and it worries me that he is around for the baby. I see him in LOVE with being a father. I just really hope that he is the real father. I am worried he isnt tho. really worried. that when the results come back... it they are negative. I worry he'll go back to his life. saddened. very sad. getting a glimps of what could be. and it being taken away.
like... in my opinion. I wish they would just decide to make it known and forget the tests. just be mother and father. ya know? A. you dont have to stress. B. he'd be a great father. C. the familys will be happy
I am hoping for the best. I think the baby is his. but then again... i have not seen a picture of the other person. so far... he isnt manly enough to stand up and be a man. so... i dont know about that.
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ef to the are to the eee to the ee........ FREE! lalala.
so to become a manager i have all of these videos at work to watch. oh joy. ill start those soon.
alright... out of things to write and im watching a show. bye! i suck at blogging!
Friday, September 12, 2008
over acheiving again
So this is exactly what happened yesterday at work.
I get to work and I have one haircut at 12:00. a regular client i have. that take oh 30 min (maybefore) and I am done. I have nothing all day long.
Michelle has a client comming in. one that Fatemah had done before. but of course fatemah did not write down what she had used on this girl.
well she come sin with this platinum hair on top with natural underneath.
okay so michelle tells her how she has some spots underneath her hair on the brown. so she tells her she is goin to fix that for her. and bleach her roots and tone them. so here is what she did.
her natual is about an 8neutral. not ashy and not warm.
so this is what she used:
Roots: Bleach
Toner: 2 parts 10V and 1 part 10WARM
(p.s. she is convinced this is the way to tone all blonds pretty much. she doesnt like the cool blond look.)
Underneath: 8WARM
so now she has this champainge yellow roots with warm brown under.
First mistake was she didnt leave the bleach on long enough.
Second mistake was she toned her to a warm blond instead of the cool color platinum she wanted
third she made her brown under warm which she did not want.
so what i did was:
Roots: 10V all the way. and twice. i rinced it and did it again.
Underneath: 8 Neutral (which has a semi-ash base to tone out that warm)
and I told he she needed to wait about 2 weeks in order to re-bleach her roots because her scalp would not be able to handle it. so she said she would call in a few weeks.
So ya, I felt like a manager again. over and over again. its like im the step in manager when our manager is away. everyone comes to me with questions. and complaints, problems. everything. haha. weird.
anyway... that was my day yesterday. oh fun.
and now cas is trying to get prego again. and I am hopeing for the best. Iam praying for the best! always.
I get to work and I have one haircut at 12:00. a regular client i have. that take oh 30 min (maybefore) and I am done. I have nothing all day long.
Michelle has a client comming in. one that Fatemah had done before. but of course fatemah did not write down what she had used on this girl.
well she come sin with this platinum hair on top with natural underneath.
okay so michelle tells her how she has some spots underneath her hair on the brown. so she tells her she is goin to fix that for her. and bleach her roots and tone them. so here is what she did.
her natual is about an 8neutral. not ashy and not warm.
so this is what she used:
Roots: Bleach
Toner: 2 parts 10V and 1 part 10WARM
(p.s. she is convinced this is the way to tone all blonds pretty much. she doesnt like the cool blond look.)
Underneath: 8WARM
so now she has this champainge yellow roots with warm brown under.
First mistake was she didnt leave the bleach on long enough.
Second mistake was she toned her to a warm blond instead of the cool color platinum she wanted
third she made her brown under warm which she did not want.
so what i did was:
Roots: 10V all the way. and twice. i rinced it and did it again.
Underneath: 8 Neutral (which has a semi-ash base to tone out that warm)
and I told he she needed to wait about 2 weeks in order to re-bleach her roots because her scalp would not be able to handle it. so she said she would call in a few weeks.
So ya, I felt like a manager again. over and over again. its like im the step in manager when our manager is away. everyone comes to me with questions. and complaints, problems. everything. haha. weird.
anyway... that was my day yesterday. oh fun.
and now cas is trying to get prego again. and I am hopeing for the best. Iam praying for the best! always.
Sunday, August 31, 2008
An Aunt Again
So my sister-in-law is pregnant. which is too freakin exciting! I cant even believe it. Its been less than a year since they have been married and BAM. Preggo. my brother... the one we werent even sure would ever move out of the house... let alone get married... is going to be a father? WHAT? haha. its ammusing. very amusing. but I am very happy for them.
of course i am a tiny bit bitter. I would love to have a kid already, be pregnant. start a family. I mean... i did get married first. but i dont care. who cares! i am happy for them. and to see what a beautiful baby they are going to make.
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So Cas is on another treatments of pregnancy attempts. I am really hopefull again. haha. I think I am just overly excited for the day she calls me and tells me its still a positive test. and watch the pink get darker and darker by the week. She is going to love it. I know it will happen for her. If not this time (which i blame idiots at the hospital for and not her eggs or davids soldiers) then soon enough. I know John and Kate had to do a few tries to get it. haha all eight of those kidlets.
Daniel keeps talking to me about where to go to school. And I am torn. I get pulled between my selfish desire to live in so-cal and where i can have a family soonest. but both of those are selfish. The final decision is his, and his education. and thats how it should be. I want him to go to whatever school is BEST for this education. whatever school is BEST for getting his PHD from in math. I am willing to go across country to the best school for him. We are going to have a family. one day we will start our own family no matter where we live. maybe one place we might start sooner. and maybe another place we might be closer to home. but either way... my home is with Daniel. and i will ave a family with Daniel. wether its tomorrow or in a few years. Daniel is where my life is... he is my home. and he is my family. and our children are going to be beautiful.
so my new place is wonderful. I just love it here. love love. its great. plus daniel bought me a HUGE watermelon today. so i cant wait to cut into it.
of course i am a tiny bit bitter. I would love to have a kid already, be pregnant. start a family. I mean... i did get married first. but i dont care. who cares! i am happy for them. and to see what a beautiful baby they are going to make.
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So Cas is on another treatments of pregnancy attempts. I am really hopefull again. haha. I think I am just overly excited for the day she calls me and tells me its still a positive test. and watch the pink get darker and darker by the week. She is going to love it. I know it will happen for her. If not this time (which i blame idiots at the hospital for and not her eggs or davids soldiers) then soon enough. I know John and Kate had to do a few tries to get it. haha all eight of those kidlets.
Daniel keeps talking to me about where to go to school. And I am torn. I get pulled between my selfish desire to live in so-cal and where i can have a family soonest. but both of those are selfish. The final decision is his, and his education. and thats how it should be. I want him to go to whatever school is BEST for this education. whatever school is BEST for getting his PHD from in math. I am willing to go across country to the best school for him. We are going to have a family. one day we will start our own family no matter where we live. maybe one place we might start sooner. and maybe another place we might be closer to home. but either way... my home is with Daniel. and i will ave a family with Daniel. wether its tomorrow or in a few years. Daniel is where my life is... he is my home. and he is my family. and our children are going to be beautiful.
so my new place is wonderful. I just love it here. love love. its great. plus daniel bought me a HUGE watermelon today. so i cant wait to cut into it.
Sunday, August 10, 2008
one appartment down... one to go
Sorry I havent blogged much lately. but i will right now...
We moved into our new appartment on June29th. everything went perfectly. We picked up my Dad and Aunt Brenda at the airport on that Monday night. Daniel and i woke up around 6 in the morning ready to go! but waited until they woke up. we couldnt even help ourselves. with all the excitment of moving and everything. anyway... we went out to breakfast and got started moving around 10? i think. it took 2 loads to move us in. and the first thing daniel and i want to do. SHOWER IN A NORMAL SHOWER! on the way over Daniel and i are like "i need to shower" haha. so before anything got unpacked... we both got to shower (seperately... duh) and the shower is WONDERFUL. the shower head is really high so there is no need to bend to get your head wet. and it stays WARM the ENTIRE showering time. so nice. SO NICE. plus it has a tub which i didnt use then but is great. Anyway.... so after we showerd we got dinner. then came home and brenda jane and i started unpacking the kitchen some. then it was bedtime.
So the next morning was an unpacking day. and the entire kitchen got put away and we arrainged how the furniture would be in the living room. and we got a good amount of unpacking done. then we took my dad and brenda jane back to the airport. so the next few days i finished moving in. i put away all of the clothes and shoes. bathroom... the house. haha. we now we are moved in.
i have a few jackets i dont know where to put. ill figure that out eventually.
the place is amazing. i love it. the heater works wonderfully which yes... we have used and daniel doesnt even mind it! its so nice. i am so glad we moved here.
for now... goodbye
We moved into our new appartment on June29th. everything went perfectly. We picked up my Dad and Aunt Brenda at the airport on that Monday night. Daniel and i woke up around 6 in the morning ready to go! but waited until they woke up. we couldnt even help ourselves. with all the excitment of moving and everything. anyway... we went out to breakfast and got started moving around 10? i think. it took 2 loads to move us in. and the first thing daniel and i want to do. SHOWER IN A NORMAL SHOWER! on the way over Daniel and i are like "i need to shower" haha. so before anything got unpacked... we both got to shower (seperately... duh) and the shower is WONDERFUL. the shower head is really high so there is no need to bend to get your head wet. and it stays WARM the ENTIRE showering time. so nice. SO NICE. plus it has a tub which i didnt use then but is great. Anyway.... so after we showerd we got dinner. then came home and brenda jane and i started unpacking the kitchen some. then it was bedtime.
So the next morning was an unpacking day. and the entire kitchen got put away and we arrainged how the furniture would be in the living room. and we got a good amount of unpacking done. then we took my dad and brenda jane back to the airport. so the next few days i finished moving in. i put away all of the clothes and shoes. bathroom... the house. haha. we now we are moved in.
i have a few jackets i dont know where to put. ill figure that out eventually.
the place is amazing. i love it. the heater works wonderfully which yes... we have used and daniel doesnt even mind it! its so nice. i am so glad we moved here.
for now... goodbye
Sunday, July 20, 2008
life as we know it
we are so packed. we have so many boxes in the bedroom. and we arent even done yet. I have half packed the kitchen. but ya... we are so close to being done and moved! 10 days. only 10. I cant believe that. 10 days until paradise. :]
today we went to go do laundry. ALL the laundry we have. Daniel already packed all the clean close we had. and so I washed everything we had dirty, we picked out what we are going to wear for 10 days and then packed the rest of it.ALOT of laudry. ALOT ALOT ALOT. anyway... there is the vet right there. and saw this family outside BALLING. this mother and son were just crying so hard. i felt so bad for them. they must have just put an animal to sleep. it was sad. very.
I have been decent at work lately. at least having 2-3 people a day. well... at least one a day.
we had state board come by this week. it was this really cute girl. she comes up to the front desk and im like "hi, how can i help you" and she flashes her badge and says "im from state board and here to do an investigation.and im like oh okay **pees pants** and shes like "i need a buisness card" and im like a blank? shes like ya. and then i start to walk back in the salon with her and shes asking me questions about the salon "how many stylist do you have?" and i go "im gunna get my manager." so i go to her and im like "state board is here" and she is walking around just casually. just randomly opening drawers. asking our manager questions. then i see her at this one stylist station with her. and taking pics of the drawers. and im like oh goodness. but my station is perfect. no joke... i am impecable when it comes to my station. i wouldnt have been fined or anything. so she is done... she takes our manager to the side to say what fines there are for the salon. then the stylist gets her fine. she was charged 600 for two fines! can you believe that?! 600. for not labaling correctly (100) and second for some hair in the drawer. so she was fined for not disinfection correctly (500) yikes. YIKES! and i guess the salon was fined for a few thousand (including the stylist fines ontop of the salon fines)
anyway... so ya. thats my life right now. packing packing packing. getting so close to moving. so so close. so excited.
and cas. come to me to my friends wedding on aug 2nd. i think an evening wedding. its a saturday. thanks.
today we went to go do laundry. ALL the laundry we have. Daniel already packed all the clean close we had. and so I washed everything we had dirty, we picked out what we are going to wear for 10 days and then packed the rest of it.ALOT of laudry. ALOT ALOT ALOT. anyway... there is the vet right there. and saw this family outside BALLING. this mother and son were just crying so hard. i felt so bad for them. they must have just put an animal to sleep. it was sad. very.
I have been decent at work lately. at least having 2-3 people a day. well... at least one a day.
we had state board come by this week. it was this really cute girl. she comes up to the front desk and im like "hi, how can i help you" and she flashes her badge and says "im from state board and here to do an investigation.and im like oh okay **pees pants** and shes like "i need a buisness card" and im like a blank? shes like ya. and then i start to walk back in the salon with her and shes asking me questions about the salon "how many stylist do you have?" and i go "im gunna get my manager." so i go to her and im like "state board is here" and she is walking around just casually. just randomly opening drawers. asking our manager questions. then i see her at this one stylist station with her. and taking pics of the drawers. and im like oh goodness. but my station is perfect. no joke... i am impecable when it comes to my station. i wouldnt have been fined or anything. so she is done... she takes our manager to the side to say what fines there are for the salon. then the stylist gets her fine. she was charged 600 for two fines! can you believe that?! 600. for not labaling correctly (100) and second for some hair in the drawer. so she was fined for not disinfection correctly (500) yikes. YIKES! and i guess the salon was fined for a few thousand (including the stylist fines ontop of the salon fines)
anyway... so ya. thats my life right now. packing packing packing. getting so close to moving. so so close. so excited.
and cas. come to me to my friends wedding on aug 2nd. i think an evening wedding. its a saturday. thanks.
Monday, July 7, 2008
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there is one thing I am sure of. and thats Daniel and my love. I just like to look at him. do anything! eat... play... study. he is amazing, I cant imagine anyone more perfect for me. because he is it. my perfect piece. that perfect match. his face, i love his face. I love everything. he is amazing, and adorable. I cant get enough of him. and when people are like "i need a girls night out right now" i dont get that feeling. (i mean if i lived near cas... we would ALWAYS meet up. but not in place of our husbands.) I want to be with daniel all daylong. when i want to do something fun, i want to hold his hand while doing it. I want to go see movies with him, or go out to eat with him. I love being with him. its fun. i just want to be with him.
We are going to be moving in 3 weeks. 21 days! wow. its comming so fast. I am so excited. so much to do. with so little time. haha. no worries. I will get it all packed and ready to do beforehand. I packed two boxes so far. haha. and that was a few days ago. a slow going but I'll get it down. Im packing the kitchen (stuff i dont use). then I'll move to the closet. the last weekend ( 4 days off, 2 to pack and 2 to move) I'll do the bathroom into boxes and clothes into suitcases (and do laundry). no problem. I am way excited! no more fish smell (from across the street at the fish market) no more loud stairs, no more bum sleeping on the street, no more one hour parking, no more kitchennette, no more stupid shower, no more small place. I cant wait. :] I CANT WAIT!
We are going to be moving in 3 weeks. 21 days! wow. its comming so fast. I am so excited. so much to do. with so little time. haha. no worries. I will get it all packed and ready to do beforehand. I packed two boxes so far. haha. and that was a few days ago. a slow going but I'll get it down. Im packing the kitchen (stuff i dont use). then I'll move to the closet. the last weekend ( 4 days off, 2 to pack and 2 to move) I'll do the bathroom into boxes and clothes into suitcases (and do laundry). no problem. I am way excited! no more fish smell (from across the street at the fish market) no more loud stairs, no more bum sleeping on the street, no more one hour parking, no more kitchennette, no more stupid shower, no more small place. I cant wait. :] I CANT WAIT!
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
yesterday, all my toubles seem so far away
this is large writing! haha. so i am going to write big big huge! :] hehe.
so i need to stop worrying about things. I worry about when I am going to have kids. like I dont want to be 50 when i have my first kid. but i just need to relax. let life happen. I know in a few years I will get the chance to start a family. and Im not in a hurry. but I just want kids. and sometimes that takes over and i start to loose it. I go from BABY BABY BABY BABY to needing to relax a little. I just need to stop talking about it. in 2 to 3 years I am sure daniel and I will start trying and we will have beautiful children.
so my move draws closer and closer, and I realize i dont have alot of time left to pack. I am going to be gone for one of the weekends. so now i have 8 full days to back. and just stuff when i get home from work. not much time... not much to pack. lets hope i do it all in time. **fingers crossed**
once we move life is going to be so much nicer and easier. Cooking is going to be amazing! a real kitchen. one with counter space, a nice cooking enviroment. a place to run around, its so nice to have a little community that is semi-secluded. so i can start getting more active again. a nice healthy lifestyle. one both of us can be proud of. i am so excited for the move. the beautiful home. meeting other married couples, making friends, living in a nice community. I am so excited. I cant wait.
work is getting frustrating. so SLOW and then PACKED. i work five days... 3 days will be nothing and 1-2 will be busy. it sucks. its a depressing thing to go work when your like "today is going to suck" ugh. but i love hair. i do. and i love the people i work with. i just hate being bored all day.
so i need to stop worrying about things. I worry about when I am going to have kids. like I dont want to be 50 when i have my first kid. but i just need to relax. let life happen. I know in a few years I will get the chance to start a family. and Im not in a hurry. but I just want kids. and sometimes that takes over and i start to loose it. I go from BABY BABY BABY BABY to needing to relax a little. I just need to stop talking about it. in 2 to 3 years I am sure daniel and I will start trying and we will have beautiful children.
so my move draws closer and closer, and I realize i dont have alot of time left to pack. I am going to be gone for one of the weekends. so now i have 8 full days to back. and just stuff when i get home from work. not much time... not much to pack. lets hope i do it all in time. **fingers crossed**
once we move life is going to be so much nicer and easier. Cooking is going to be amazing! a real kitchen. one with counter space, a nice cooking enviroment. a place to run around, its so nice to have a little community that is semi-secluded. so i can start getting more active again. a nice healthy lifestyle. one both of us can be proud of. i am so excited for the move. the beautiful home. meeting other married couples, making friends, living in a nice community. I am so excited. I cant wait.
work is getting frustrating. so SLOW and then PACKED. i work five days... 3 days will be nothing and 1-2 will be busy. it sucks. its a depressing thing to go work when your like "today is going to suck" ugh. but i love hair. i do. and i love the people i work with. i just hate being bored all day.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
makeover fun
here is the origional. the first. me. sloppy, sleepy, sweater.
so cas told me to do it. and i did. oh how fun. i laughed and laughed. there will be more. i promise :] thats too much fun to pass up.
so if i were ever a mermaid... this is how i shall be.
and this is if i went on ROCK OF LOVE
blonde bomb shell.
bad haircut with orange brown hair? yum.
tinker bell!
my future hair and makeup. im going to dragqueen. howd i do?
blonde bomb shell.
bad haircut with orange brown hair? yum.
tinker bell!
my future hair and makeup. im going to dragqueen. howd i do?
now i look like that lady from the show on bravo "work out" ya know... the lesbian? exactly like her. crazy.
and well... just for fun haha
Sunday, June 15, 2008
because i can
lets see here... my life is good. my husband is beautiful. I am moving into a beautifully rebuilt appartment. a great marriage. a crappy diet i cant stay one. haha. and one amazing bestfriend.
i see little kids... little babies... and i go I WANT ONE! haha. not now... i know. but i do! hehe. i cant help it! kids are too darn cute! people really get on my nerves. when they are like "when are you going to have kids?" and i say "later on... we couldnt have kids right now. expecially financially." and everyone goes "YOU ARE NEVER FINANCIALLY READY FOR KIDS" ya, i know. its not like oneday we will look at our bank accounts and it will say "ready for children" duh. but right now we cannot afford another being in our home. my paycheck is not what supports this family. its daniels finanical aid, and that goes to bills and food. so when i say we cannot afford it.. we would deal with it if it happened... but this is not the time. sometimes people need to relax and stop being so negative. "oh just wait. it only gets worse" im sorry your life sucks and your life got worse... but mine wont, so thanks. but no thanks"
I know i will be a great mom. i can tell from half the people i see roaming the streets with kids that i would be a better mom than any of them. all of them! eventually it will be my turn.
capital one is stupid and i hate them.
the end
i see little kids... little babies... and i go I WANT ONE! haha. not now... i know. but i do! hehe. i cant help it! kids are too darn cute! people really get on my nerves. when they are like "when are you going to have kids?" and i say "later on... we couldnt have kids right now. expecially financially." and everyone goes "YOU ARE NEVER FINANCIALLY READY FOR KIDS" ya, i know. its not like oneday we will look at our bank accounts and it will say "ready for children" duh. but right now we cannot afford another being in our home. my paycheck is not what supports this family. its daniels finanical aid, and that goes to bills and food. so when i say we cannot afford it.. we would deal with it if it happened... but this is not the time. sometimes people need to relax and stop being so negative. "oh just wait. it only gets worse" im sorry your life sucks and your life got worse... but mine wont, so thanks. but no thanks"
I know i will be a great mom. i can tell from half the people i see roaming the streets with kids that i would be a better mom than any of them. all of them! eventually it will be my turn.
capital one is stupid and i hate them.
the end
Friday, June 6, 2008
new apartment pictures
this is the kitchen... It is nice and perfect! I love the beautiful light wood cupboards... with this nice swan stone gray countertops. a nice big oven with 4 burners... two cutting boards! that beautiful two dip sink! and alll those cupboards! you see them!!! yupppp i get to use them.
this is the hallway closet. the left half is for hanging jackets which we need! and the right half is shelving which i am going to use for a linnen closet. I am going to put towels and extra blankets. :] i am sooo excited.
this is the wonderful family room without a kitchen in it! WOW! haha. i have already done the layout in like 10 different ways! we have a couch, tv with entertainment stand, a few cupboardy things, a sidetable, and daniels desk. i dont think we will have the windows you see on the left because this is the apartment next to ours.. and its on the end of the building, so we wont be. but anyway its cute.
this is what the ouside and pattio looks like. i think i am going to get a few potted plants for the pattio. i dont konw... but maybe.
bathrooms! a full one! so beautiful. and very spacious. suprising spacious. i love the light wood, and the nice tile floor. and it has a tub! see below.
this is where i am going to be living! haha. i cant wait to use it. and get a shower curtain! a cute hawian one that matches my towels and stuff. so cute! i cant wait! bubble bath here i come!
the bedroom. nice windows. and a little cove in it... which i think the dresser will go. and the bed and hamper with one nightstand. the closet is below
the closet is a nice size too! its an L so you can stand inside of it. haha. walkin closset! haha.
I CANT WAIT! JULY 29th cannot come soon enough!
good news keeps comming
so after we got the offer on the place, we called to find out what the deposit will be. and its 250. dollars... two hundred and fifty dollars. WHAT! sign me up. haha. we'll take it! haha. so we went by and say the appartment and its beautiful. even better than i could have dreamed.
the kitchen is huge, and beautiful... with a double sink and two pull out cutting tables... so much counter space... an oven WAY bigger than what i have now. and the fridges is bigger too. and CUPBOARDS! with doors... and drawers... oh god. a real kitchen! i am so excited. then a living room totally seperate. with a patio off of it with is covered. with al ittle fence with a door. so cute. and thats just one half of the place. the other half has our bedroom with the closet with is an L shape so you step into it. plus a HALLWAY... with a closet half for hanging jackets and half for linnens and things.... plus a little room that is empty for storage. then the bathroom... a FULL bathroom. not just a toilet, small shower and sink... its a toilet with cupboards about it... then the sink... then a bathtub with shower... and so much space. (because the one floors are built to be wheel chair accesible. at least the one we went it to look at is. so i am assuming. and i think it has central air. it has options: cool, heat and fan with temp settings.
we saw the room that is next door to ours. so i think the homes we saw has a few extra windows because its on the side of the building... but i dont care. its beautiful. and i cannot even wait to move in.
so ive been stealing the boxes from work. we got big shippments in and i just take them home. (i asked first) turnes out that my boss will be moving soon too... and she will need boxes too... more than me. for her and her kids and everything. i think we have enough from this last shipment... i got alot of boxes. we'll see. if we get more and she doesnt need them ill take them home. free boxes... dont mind if i do. haha.
yesterday was a decent day at work... i had a few client which was nice. first was a big one, color highlight and cut... then i had a shampooset and shes comming back next week... maybe well keep comming. easy money. haha.
so i get home and start cooking chicken parmesan. and daniel has to leave shortly. so i cook away... finish. put it in three bowls (thought i made more but not enough for 4) but no... she i get some ceran-wrap... start to put in on the third one to put in the fridge... and it falls off the counter top and falls on my foot HOOOOOT!!!!!! plus all over the carpet! so i ignore my foot while daniels runs in. he grabs paper towels and helps my poor foot first. then he leaves (because he has to tutor) and i clean the mess i made up. scrubb the floor REAL good. and eat. ugh. haha. it made me cranky.
the kitchen is huge, and beautiful... with a double sink and two pull out cutting tables... so much counter space... an oven WAY bigger than what i have now. and the fridges is bigger too. and CUPBOARDS! with doors... and drawers... oh god. a real kitchen! i am so excited. then a living room totally seperate. with a patio off of it with is covered. with al ittle fence with a door. so cute. and thats just one half of the place. the other half has our bedroom with the closet with is an L shape so you step into it. plus a HALLWAY... with a closet half for hanging jackets and half for linnens and things.... plus a little room that is empty for storage. then the bathroom... a FULL bathroom. not just a toilet, small shower and sink... its a toilet with cupboards about it... then the sink... then a bathtub with shower... and so much space. (because the one floors are built to be wheel chair accesible. at least the one we went it to look at is. so i am assuming. and i think it has central air. it has options: cool, heat and fan with temp settings.
we saw the room that is next door to ours. so i think the homes we saw has a few extra windows because its on the side of the building... but i dont care. its beautiful. and i cannot even wait to move in.
so ive been stealing the boxes from work. we got big shippments in and i just take them home. (i asked first) turnes out that my boss will be moving soon too... and she will need boxes too... more than me. for her and her kids and everything. i think we have enough from this last shipment... i got alot of boxes. we'll see. if we get more and she doesnt need them ill take them home. free boxes... dont mind if i do. haha.
yesterday was a decent day at work... i had a few client which was nice. first was a big one, color highlight and cut... then i had a shampooset and shes comming back next week... maybe well keep comming. easy money. haha.
so i get home and start cooking chicken parmesan. and daniel has to leave shortly. so i cook away... finish. put it in three bowls (thought i made more but not enough for 4) but no... she i get some ceran-wrap... start to put in on the third one to put in the fridge... and it falls off the counter top and falls on my foot HOOOOOT!!!!!! plus all over the carpet! so i ignore my foot while daniels runs in. he grabs paper towels and helps my poor foot first. then he leaves (because he has to tutor) and i clean the mess i made up. scrubb the floor REAL good. and eat. ugh. haha. it made me cranky.
Sunday, June 1, 2008
officially moving!
so we got the offer on the appartment we pre selected! now we have to call them on monday and set up a date to go in and sign papers and put down the deposit.... which is scary cause... ugh we defenitly dont have a million dollars on hand to just put down a deposit. so ya... if its like 1200 plus first months rent 1195... thats 2393.... 2400! i dont have that on hand dude! haha. i know my family will help. but its like... we love help. we appriciate all the help we can get. but its like when we do recieve help as in money... we really do want to pay it back. like we want to borrow money, because we are adults who dont need mom and dad to pay for everything... so its kinda hard sometimes. when dads like "ya you can write us a check... we just wont cash it." uhh... but thats now what I want. and i know its out of love. and no father would take money from their baby girl.
anyway... so july 29th! i am going to be moving into my new appartment! i am so excited. I dont care if i need to sell my kidney! i am going to be moving into those appartments! haha.
anyway... so july 29th! i am going to be moving into my new appartment! i am so excited. I dont care if i need to sell my kidney! i am going to be moving into those appartments! haha.
Friday, May 23, 2008
WE ARE MOVING! IN JULY
a map of the location
omg! we got into the family housing for uc berkeley! we get to move into a one bedroom on the first floor! omg! i am so excited! I called yesterday to ask about a waiting list, and just to find out how long it really is. and the lady says and i quote "we havent filled all of the one bedrooms yet. there is no waiting list yet" WHAT! so i say i filled an application out... tell her our names and she tells me to email this lady to PRE-SELECT THE APPARTMENT TO LIVE IN!!! WHATTTT!!!! she says to tell her what building you want, what way you want your windows to face and what floor you want. so i tell daniel to email the lady. ask if we could get a first floor and i dont care where. so daniel gets a call today and the lady tells him what building and what room our new aparment is in! we are in building 170 in room 103 on the first floor! she says its the farthest away from the train... which we are going to be closer compared to where we live now. but hey, brand new apartment... never been lived in... first floor with a parking space! i couldnt be happier!
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
way sick
so yesterday I woke up around 5:00AM with this massive soar throat. so i could no longer sleep. so once daniel woke up he took me to the doctor. so i go there and wait for FOREVER. she was nice. but it is hard for me to trust anyone else but Dr. Kurtz. but ya... she said I have strep throat. so he gives me some penesilin and i leave.
we take the perscription to the pharmacy and daniel goes back later to get it. (there was a 2 hour wait) so i get home and I have a jamba juice. i take some IB profin (600 millagrams) cause the doctor told me to. but i cant really swallow. so a little while later I throw all that jamba juice up. I didnt have enough food in my stomic. so i get the anti-biotics... take one with some crackers and soup. then throw that up later. so now not only cant i hold anything down... i cant take anything because i need to eat first. and all i do is throw it up. so i cant get any better.
so today I wake up and eat soup. take the anti-biotics. and by the middle of the day I take another, take some ib profin... and i start to feel better... slowly. then it gets to night time like 9:00... and my throat starts hurting again... ugh. hopefully tomorrow i will feel much better.
i hope I get better before our trip home... and daniel doesnt come down with this. if this ruins our trip down south i am not going to be a happy camper.
we take the perscription to the pharmacy and daniel goes back later to get it. (there was a 2 hour wait) so i get home and I have a jamba juice. i take some IB profin (600 millagrams) cause the doctor told me to. but i cant really swallow. so a little while later I throw all that jamba juice up. I didnt have enough food in my stomic. so i get the anti-biotics... take one with some crackers and soup. then throw that up later. so now not only cant i hold anything down... i cant take anything because i need to eat first. and all i do is throw it up. so i cant get any better.
so today I wake up and eat soup. take the anti-biotics. and by the middle of the day I take another, take some ib profin... and i start to feel better... slowly. then it gets to night time like 9:00... and my throat starts hurting again... ugh. hopefully tomorrow i will feel much better.
i hope I get better before our trip home... and daniel doesnt come down with this. if this ruins our trip down south i am not going to be a happy camper.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
happily ever after
everythings been nice here. we have lived in berkeley for 9 months. thats a looong time. and i have come home about 5 or 6 times. our lease will be up in aug. and secretly i hope we will get the chance to find another place to live in a nicer neighbor hood with a parking spot. and right now daniel sorta wants to stay at berkeley for his grad school. which is fine with me, i wont have to relocate with a job, but we will move for sure at least by then. we will be able to afford something a little more for a little nicer place.
so berkeley finally put up the prices for their family housing one bedrooms. $1,195. and we knew they were going to be alot. cause their 2 bedrooms are almost $1400. but we are applying to see if we can even get into one. I am hoping, we would just take out a little bit of a bigger loan... no biggie. my hopes are up up... cause last time we didnt even get into one. but i do hope it works out because they are brand new! and beautiful, and large. they have one bedroom, full bath, kitchen with dining area, and a living room seperate! but hey... if not oh well. we are going to be living here for one more year. this past year seems to go by quick.
heres a little snap shot of the apartments
so that is that. i am still growing out my hair... but i am gong to cut the back of it. cause its getting a little mullet-eee. not really. not to anyone else but me. cause the front is still shorter than the back. so i want it to catch up first. so i am going to trim up the back as the front grows out. and until it is the same length i will keep trimming the back. i also did a blond chuck in the front. i wanted to see what color the blond will turn out to be. so its going to look really nice. im very excited for the whole outcome of it all.
my next trim down south will be may 24th- may 28th. Daniel and I are going to be driving down. this is the plan so far:
Saturday: start the drive at 5:00 AM
Sunday: Family and Friends BBQ at 3:00 PM
I'll be doing family haircuts during this time.
Monday: Memorial day... no plans yet
Tuesday: daniel is going to go see UCLA and Cal Tech
I will be doing color and cuts at home
Wednesday: Leaving EArly to head to berkeley
right now i am watching extreme makeover. and this one is really good. and when i say good... i mean sad. this husband and wife get married and start a family. then when they are delivering their third child the baby comes out fine. then while the husband is driving his two boys home he gets in a huge accident and is injured majorly with brain damage. he is unable to live at home with his family now because of the house layout and is living with his parents. he was told he would never talk or walk again. and he is talking some and bearly walking again. its been 2 years. jeeze, thats hard. this is a good one. plus the mom is a hairstylist and wants to have a salon at home to start that up again. so thats a plus... of course! haha.
anywhooo... its mothers day. i called my mom and grandma. did that. i made a chicken/broccli thingy. yum yum. went grocry shopping... and i have no idea how it always seems to be soo much! even if i cook all week. then we go shopping once a week. and tis like over 100 ever week! jeeze. what the heck has this world come to!
alright... now i am off. bye bye
Monday, May 5, 2008
we dont see eye to eye
it comes up again and again.
age and marriage.
age and parenting.
really age and anything.
i hate the phrase "your too young to understand"
i hear it at my work.
and its like... well first your an idiot.
what the hell are you talking about that you think i wouldnt "understand" it.
maybe my response wouldnt be "ya... me too"
and then being young and married.
it snot like i got knocked up and got married.
I fell in love, dated for 2 years. got married...
and have been happily married for 1 year and 3 months.
and now we are thinking of children.
I mean i am goin to wait because we need to wait.
but Cas is ready for children,
she has the means for a stable enviroment.
and happy home.
and she is fully covered TWICE on anything having to do with firtility right now.
so why not jump on the chance to do EVERYTHING YOU CAN to get pregnent?
i get that we have "all the time in the world"
and that we are "young"
but when you are having issues getting pregnant... like cas is.
its not going to get better. ya know?
so taking all of the FREE opertunities she has to get pregnant on her own
its understandable right? its reasonable.
we arent jumping over nothing, we arent being spontaneous with some random guy.
we didnt get pregnant on some one night stand at 18 and get married.
we fell in LOVE "early" i guess.
we got married "young" i guess
and we want kids before we are 30. which is young... i guess
i just dont see eye to eye i guess.
age and marriage.
age and parenting.
really age and anything.
i hate the phrase "your too young to understand"
i hear it at my work.
and its like... well first your an idiot.
what the hell are you talking about that you think i wouldnt "understand" it.
maybe my response wouldnt be "ya... me too"
and then being young and married.
it snot like i got knocked up and got married.
I fell in love, dated for 2 years. got married...
and have been happily married for 1 year and 3 months.
and now we are thinking of children.
I mean i am goin to wait because we need to wait.
but Cas is ready for children,
she has the means for a stable enviroment.
and happy home.
and she is fully covered TWICE on anything having to do with firtility right now.
so why not jump on the chance to do EVERYTHING YOU CAN to get pregnent?
i get that we have "all the time in the world"
and that we are "young"
but when you are having issues getting pregnant... like cas is.
its not going to get better. ya know?
so taking all of the FREE opertunities she has to get pregnant on her own
its understandable right? its reasonable.
we arent jumping over nothing, we arent being spontaneous with some random guy.
we didnt get pregnant on some one night stand at 18 and get married.
we fell in LOVE "early" i guess.
we got married "young" i guess
and we want kids before we are 30. which is young... i guess
i just dont see eye to eye i guess.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
drunk again...
I am the only person i know who has never been drunk.
honestly, I dont know a single friend.
and its like... kinds disappointing sometimes
when i hear people say "i seriously dont even remember!"
its sad to me.
who wants that kinds of experience?
one you cannot even remember?
no matter how funny it was. i just reaaaally dont get it!
plus it tastes so gross!
so even if i wanted to... i couldnt do it!
its just tastes baaaaad.
gross. id rather be alive, awake, alert, enthusiastic... with a soda in my hand.
:] oh yaaaaa. :]
so its just something i really dont get. i really cannot understand it.
expecially when its someone i know who is religious.
and then i see them drunk in pictures.
or drinking in them... or talking about getting drunk
it just seems a bit hypocritical to me. and i dont like it.
but what i do like...
is my best friend cassandra claire.
who is obsessed with buying people right now.
so beware!
honestly, I dont know a single friend.
and its like... kinds disappointing sometimes
when i hear people say "i seriously dont even remember!"
its sad to me.
who wants that kinds of experience?
one you cannot even remember?
no matter how funny it was. i just reaaaally dont get it!
plus it tastes so gross!
so even if i wanted to... i couldnt do it!
its just tastes baaaaad.
gross. id rather be alive, awake, alert, enthusiastic... with a soda in my hand.
:] oh yaaaaa. :]
so its just something i really dont get. i really cannot understand it.
expecially when its someone i know who is religious.
and then i see them drunk in pictures.
or drinking in them... or talking about getting drunk
it just seems a bit hypocritical to me. and i dont like it.
but what i do like...
is my best friend cassandra claire.
who is obsessed with buying people right now.
so beware!
Sunday, April 27, 2008
i got bored.... what can i say...
He is the number one in my life. finding love with someone who is your best friend is amazing. I am so happy with my life. maybe we arent in the most ideal location... but my home life is perfect. I fall more in love with each passing day. He is amazing. I am really lucky.
This girl is the number one girl in my life. we have the most amazing relationship anyone could ask for. like seriously? who can get in a big fight... for months... not talking. but always thinking of eachother. and then when we get back together... we are back the exact same way as if we had seen eachother the day before. we are those friends who talk about everything... not kidding, EVERYTHING. even stuff no one should mention. like weird boul movements. haha. we are weird and perfect best friends. never having to worry about being judged. or feeling stupid. we always understand eachother. shes understanding, honest, trustworthy, funny... shes amazing and i love her!
now my family... this is my brother and smallest nephew who i call bubba. this picture seriously makes me happy. first of all... my brother is this unknown comedian who can make me pee my pants laughing all day. and my nephew is a bundle of joy. when he isnt smiling you can only asume something is wrong. cause he is always happy. that kid makes me want to have some of my own. he is great... both of them are.
see? isnt this kid just amazing! that smile is contageous. this is how he looks alllll day long. as long as matthew isnt pushing him around! haha. he reminds me alot of his grandpa rich. who he was named after.
this face! haha. he looks like a little hampster to me. stretching his neck out and making a cute squishy face. so cute. :]
now this chef is one chef who can cook anything fo rme.... anytime. :] matty is such a ball of joy. when i call and talk toh im on the phone he will just talk about anything. and i never understand a word of it and just go "oh really?" and he goes "yay!" and i go "was it fun?" and he goes "yey fun ya" so cute.
someone needs a haircut! haha. he is not camera shy. when he sees a camera he just smiles. no matter what he is doing... and he isnt even always looking at the camera! he just smiles his big "chandler" smile. this one isnt bad. but usually its just a crazy smile. thats why i love him so much.
now i get to play with this... which is a little piece of heaven! im tickling matty and richy keeps just grabbing his hair.
now my family... this is my brother and smallest nephew who i call bubba. this picture seriously makes me happy. first of all... my brother is this unknown comedian who can make me pee my pants laughing all day. and my nephew is a bundle of joy. when he isnt smiling you can only asume something is wrong. cause he is always happy. that kid makes me want to have some of my own. he is great... both of them are.
see? isnt this kid just amazing! that smile is contageous. this is how he looks alllll day long. as long as matthew isnt pushing him around! haha. he reminds me alot of his grandpa rich. who he was named after.
this face! haha. he looks like a little hampster to me. stretching his neck out and making a cute squishy face. so cute. :]
now this chef is one chef who can cook anything fo rme.... anytime. :] matty is such a ball of joy. when i call and talk toh im on the phone he will just talk about anything. and i never understand a word of it and just go "oh really?" and he goes "yay!" and i go "was it fun?" and he goes "yey fun ya" so cute.
someone needs a haircut! haha. he is not camera shy. when he sees a camera he just smiles. no matter what he is doing... and he isnt even always looking at the camera! he just smiles his big "chandler" smile. this one isnt bad. but usually its just a crazy smile. thats why i love him so much.
now i get to play with this... which is a little piece of heaven! im tickling matty and richy keeps just grabbing his hair.
Friday, April 25, 2008
trip down south again
they are never long enough. but thats probably because i want to live there with daniel instead of visiting. but at least i do get to visit what? once a month. and that is really alot. but it is hard being so far from everyone. like cas and my dad and mom and brenda and matty and bubba.
so work as been really slow lately. but i thought ive been doing decently. at least making my quota. but i guess not. for the past two months I havent made my productivity goal. and i know that after three months of not making your goal they start warning you that if you dont raise your productivty they can let you go. and thats annoying. its really really slow right now. plus she just in the last few months hired 3 new girls at the same time (practically) so its hard. plus she is changing how the walkins are being passed out. its an "equal" pass out now. like anyone can have it. master, designer, senior... doesnt matter. and i really just dont think thats right. i understand it should be who does it best, or who is best qualified to do the clients hair. but a master stylist really should have their own clientelle and shouldnt count on walkins at all. and a senior i think should get some walk ins but should have their clientelle base down pretty much.
so thats annoying. now the clients dont just go to the new designers. they go to whoever is available and fair passing out. i dont know. maybe im wrong. but i dont see how she expects people to build a clientelle when people who should have a clientelle are getting walk ins. i just dont think its right. it doesnt make sence. but hopefully we will pick up the pase and get more peopl ein the salon.
so i went in to the doctor on monday to get that shot... and so far so good? haha i dont know. it hasnt even been a week yet. so we will see how i react to that shot. ive heard its ups... and its downs. and you never really know how you will react to something until you try it.
anywhoooooooo... i never write in this thing. i always forget. plus nothing new really happens. I go to work Tues-saturady and do hair or not. and sunday and monday are my days off that i do laundry and go on dates and do dishes. thats life. its a good one. Daniels pretty amazing. so im happy. :] he makes me that way.
so work as been really slow lately. but i thought ive been doing decently. at least making my quota. but i guess not. for the past two months I havent made my productivity goal. and i know that after three months of not making your goal they start warning you that if you dont raise your productivty they can let you go. and thats annoying. its really really slow right now. plus she just in the last few months hired 3 new girls at the same time (practically) so its hard. plus she is changing how the walkins are being passed out. its an "equal" pass out now. like anyone can have it. master, designer, senior... doesnt matter. and i really just dont think thats right. i understand it should be who does it best, or who is best qualified to do the clients hair. but a master stylist really should have their own clientelle and shouldnt count on walkins at all. and a senior i think should get some walk ins but should have their clientelle base down pretty much.
so thats annoying. now the clients dont just go to the new designers. they go to whoever is available and fair passing out. i dont know. maybe im wrong. but i dont see how she expects people to build a clientelle when people who should have a clientelle are getting walk ins. i just dont think its right. it doesnt make sence. but hopefully we will pick up the pase and get more peopl ein the salon.
so i went in to the doctor on monday to get that shot... and so far so good? haha i dont know. it hasnt even been a week yet. so we will see how i react to that shot. ive heard its ups... and its downs. and you never really know how you will react to something until you try it.
anywhoooooooo... i never write in this thing. i always forget. plus nothing new really happens. I go to work Tues-saturady and do hair or not. and sunday and monday are my days off that i do laundry and go on dates and do dishes. thats life. its a good one. Daniels pretty amazing. so im happy. :] he makes me that way.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
hair
so i am growing out my hair. so that evenutally I will have this cute haircut that ive always wanted. something Ic an do curly and straight. I miss my curly hair! I LOVE my curly hair! i always have. but Daniel likes it when i "do" my hair. which really means straighten it. because when i would wear it curly it was never done done. id get the response "are you going to do your hair?" even if i already did... and i know he means nothing by it. and ive always wanted a "bob" ish cut. not a total a-line like posh spice. slightly shorter in the back. but not as layered as hers... or as short. I am really excited.
i was originally going to just grow out my hair with little trimmin and no coloring. but i could not handle it. so i did it red all over. no black and bright red streeks. just red. and then once i get it longer ill do the blonde (or if i cant get blonde something lighter) ontop. and eventually i will have the cut and color. and love it! :] I cant even wait. to have a cut i really love again. nothing too long... nothing too short. just right.
I miss my family. I miss them way alot. WAYYY alot. like more than you even know. Everytime I call and hear their voice, expecially my nephew... that innocent beautiful voice... i just melt down. and I get to see them once a month... ish. haha. and still its just not enough. I am just hopeing and praying Daniel gets into Cal-tech. that way i know he will still be going to a school that he really really wants to. not like ucla... or something lame. because i want to have him go to where he REALLY wants to go to. like the ideal school. its just hard when i get homesick. my family is my other half. and i know he understands that. and i know he would sacrifice what school he goes to for me. but i dont want him to have to. Its hard.
cause well start having kids a few years into grad school. so in about 3-4 years well start having kids. and ideally... i want to live close to my family and Cas. and I want ot be able to stay home and not work. or just work part time.
got to go cut daniels hair.
Monday, April 7, 2008
Cassandra Claire is my best friend
This is the life of Cas and I! haha. for some reason we cannot take a good picture together of us just smiling. Weve been friends for over 8 years... and loving it!
this is BACK in the day. our junior/senior year. not sure but highschool days for sure. We try hard to take good photos... but it always comes out bad. eventually... we will give up. watch and see...
another attempt for a good photo. we give up on smiles and do silly stuff. it comes put better.
sweet sweet love. kisses all around
SUPRISE! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
cas and i taking webcam pics... it was dark... and for some reason i turned out that i am black.
I am black... enough said.
bestfriends... little devils. halloween of 04 i think. or 05
up close and personal! we attempt good photos often... and rarely succeed! ps why is my hair orange?
another one. and why am i so freakishly tall? like i tower over ALL in this picture.
i defenitly love this girl. PEACE!!!!!!
Cas and I are the best of friends. no matter what... we are always there for eachtoher. thats what makes us so great.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
This is the backround to my computer... AKA my LIFE.
I love my family... and CASSANDRA CLAIRE.
and it really looks like cas is the only one who reads this... so i will respond to her comment.
its like... i would love to make friends... but not really.
because if i am only going to be here for another year.
Id rather not have another person to miss when i leave somehwere.
I am already going to miss some people at work.
its weird... i know. but i just miss everyone.
and i wish i lived closer to work.
that way my friends at work... can be my friends in life.
and i do want to find a church.
anyway... i am better today.
i have my emotional moments.
but i love my family.
i cant help it!
i have the best family anyone could ask for.
and the most amazing best friend ever.
so you cant blame me for missing what i am used to having.
i call daily. and i visit monthly. and its really great.
I'll be back in no time.
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
one hour sadness
so i got pretty emotional today.
i was at work at it was comming to the end of my day.
and i had 30 minutes to go... and it was going by reeeaaally slow.
and i noticed no one really talking to me.
and then i heared peoples convos.
and i realized none of these people are like really great friends.
like we all get along, i enjoy working with everyone.
but its like... i dont feel like anyone would ask me to hang out outside of it.
its a weird feeling. makes me feel lonely.
just makes me realize jus thow alone i am here.
All i have is Daniel. and thats really it.
Cause like i used to have Daniel for my life.
and then I had Victoria during work to hang with.
and I had my family 20 min away that Id see once a week.
and Cas was so close, and we'd get together often.
and its like here i am. going to work with idiots
and they really DRIVE ME NUTs sometimes.
like a freakin monkey can do some of this stuff!
ringing up clients isnt a skill.
i dont know. i just got really really emotional and sad.
its really hard to be away from everyone sometimes.
I love Daniel. I love him so much. I would go to the end of the earth for him.
and I will. because being married to daniel is the best thing ever. and i wouldnt trade anything for what i have.
He is amazing. He makes things better with just a smile.
ok... bedtime.
i was at work at it was comming to the end of my day.
and i had 30 minutes to go... and it was going by reeeaaally slow.
and i noticed no one really talking to me.
and then i heared peoples convos.
and i realized none of these people are like really great friends.
like we all get along, i enjoy working with everyone.
but its like... i dont feel like anyone would ask me to hang out outside of it.
its a weird feeling. makes me feel lonely.
just makes me realize jus thow alone i am here.
All i have is Daniel. and thats really it.
Cause like i used to have Daniel for my life.
and then I had Victoria during work to hang with.
and I had my family 20 min away that Id see once a week.
and Cas was so close, and we'd get together often.
and its like here i am. going to work with idiots
and they really DRIVE ME NUTs sometimes.
like a freakin monkey can do some of this stuff!
ringing up clients isnt a skill.
i dont know. i just got really really emotional and sad.
its really hard to be away from everyone sometimes.
I love Daniel. I love him so much. I would go to the end of the earth for him.
and I will. because being married to daniel is the best thing ever. and i wouldnt trade anything for what i have.
He is amazing. He makes things better with just a smile.
ok... bedtime.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
how sweet it is to be loved by you
so... Daniel and i have been talking about where we will be when he does to Grad school... and where he might get a job. And its totally up in the air. and the chances of going home for school and work is slim. which is saddenning but... what matters most id Daniel... so we will wait and see where he gets into grad school... and then when thats over we will see where he gets offers for a job. which could mean we will move even our of state for all of it. which kinda scares me... i am just so used to having family right there all the time. growing up next door to my grandparents. and living down the street from my best friend. thats still how i remember my life growing up. and I want that for my kids. but at the same time... if moving out of state is going to benefit daniel and his job opportunities then its something we will do. I will still get to fly home from time to time. expecially for holidays.
what i want is to have children someday. and get the chance to be a stay at home mom from infant to elementry. then start working when they are in school. Ideally it would be great to live near family and friends. but if its not in the cards, I know it will be hard. but its going to be our life. our family.
Cas and I talk about having kids all the time. its like our favorite topic! haha. we both want kids. I know i cant have them yet... I need to wait even if i dont want to. we decide on names... and everything. haha. Ill have kids in about 4 years... and cas will start as soon as she can. and she can have a boy friend... and then ill have a girl first so they can fallin love when they get older and get married. :] okay! haha. I want three kids.
first boy: Bobby Lawler Sparks
Second boy: Daniel Lawrence Sparks
Third Boy: Brian Gregory Sparks or Gregory Brian Sparks
if i have all boys the first boy will be Robin Andrew Sparks
first girl: Robin Ann Sparks
second girl: Cassandra Carol Sparks (middle name isnt set for sure)
third girl: not sure... hopefully not three girls
what i want is to have children someday. and get the chance to be a stay at home mom from infant to elementry. then start working when they are in school. Ideally it would be great to live near family and friends. but if its not in the cards, I know it will be hard. but its going to be our life. our family.
Cas and I talk about having kids all the time. its like our favorite topic! haha. we both want kids. I know i cant have them yet... I need to wait even if i dont want to. we decide on names... and everything. haha. Ill have kids in about 4 years... and cas will start as soon as she can. and she can have a boy friend... and then ill have a girl first so they can fallin love when they get older and get married. :] okay! haha. I want three kids.
first boy: Bobby Lawler Sparks
Second boy: Daniel Lawrence Sparks
Third Boy: Brian Gregory Sparks or Gregory Brian Sparks
if i have all boys the first boy will be Robin Andrew Sparks
first girl: Robin Ann Sparks
second girl: Cassandra Carol Sparks (middle name isnt set for sure)
third girl: not sure... hopefully not three girls
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
So work has been pretty nicely lately.
I love our new manager. she has a really good sence of humor.
so we make fun of eachother alot... which is coollio.
So Cas has been having a hard time down south without me.
I miss her too... I have yet to have a friends like her again.
like... that person you hang out with when your free (and daniels busy)
and we are always in the same place in our lives together.
I wouldnt want another friend like her.
and when your compairing friends to the best best friend.
its like... there is no compairson. ya know?
cause i love her. defenitly.
so i am heading home this Thursday and Friday.
its my daddies birthday!! whoo hoo.
now i will list the food i want to eat so badly
mini-corndogs
french fries
a double quarter pounder
a big mac
fiesta platter with a baja chichen burrito
french fries with ranch
mashed potatoes with gravy
a huge thanksgiving feast
chicken stripps with bbq sauce and ranch
MEXI CASA
some bbq ribs!
alright... signing out.
I love our new manager. she has a really good sence of humor.
so we make fun of eachother alot... which is coollio.
So Cas has been having a hard time down south without me.
I miss her too... I have yet to have a friends like her again.
like... that person you hang out with when your free (and daniels busy)
and we are always in the same place in our lives together.
I wouldnt want another friend like her.
and when your compairing friends to the best best friend.
its like... there is no compairson. ya know?
cause i love her. defenitly.
so i am heading home this Thursday and Friday.
its my daddies birthday!! whoo hoo.
now i will list the food i want to eat so badly
mini-corndogs
french fries
a double quarter pounder
a big mac
fiesta platter with a baja chichen burrito
french fries with ranch
mashed potatoes with gravy
a huge thanksgiving feast
chicken stripps with bbq sauce and ranch
MEXI CASA
some bbq ribs!
alright... signing out.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
all my troubles seem so far away
i was reading my old livejournal...
read how Daniel and I fell in love.
Read how i almost lost Daniel for a moment because I was confused and scared.
read when cas and i had our blow up.
crazy stuff. crazy.
so i am feeling alot better today.
still have that cough.
not as extreme of one tho.
and ive missed to much work already.
saturday Ive got to fix someones hair at work.
she had an appt last week on saturday with me and i called out sick.
and she requested me... which i didnt know.
and she got put with someone else.
anyway... she didnt like how it came out.
and i gots to fix it. :]
makes me feel like a good stylist
ok off to work. byeee
read how Daniel and I fell in love.
Read how i almost lost Daniel for a moment because I was confused and scared.
read when cas and i had our blow up.
crazy stuff. crazy.
so i am feeling alot better today.
still have that cough.
not as extreme of one tho.
and ive missed to much work already.
saturday Ive got to fix someones hair at work.
she had an appt last week on saturday with me and i called out sick.
and she requested me... which i didnt know.
and she got put with someone else.
anyway... she didnt like how it came out.
and i gots to fix it. :]
makes me feel like a good stylist
ok off to work. byeee
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Wonderful Family
I serously have the most wonderful family ever. I cannot believe how amazing my family is sometimes.
like my dad. what an amazing man. A true servant of God. He is the type of guy who would bend over backwords for anyone. Like if he only had a dollar left, and someone needed it... even if he needed it more. he would willingly, without hesitation hand it over in a second flat. From thinking where he started from, he didnt have a perfect life with a picketed fence house, and a perfect family. He created the life he has now, and he fell in love and never gave up on it. Because when I think about it, to loose someone you really love and are going to marry... but never give up on life. and never give up on love like he did. I am amazed at who he is. and how great he is. I wouldnt trade my dad for anything.
and my mom, I really do love my mom. Ya, she gets on my nerves... but we are just girls who are annoying. but she loves me. and she shows me how much she loves me all the time in her own way. She never makes me feel stupid, and she always has made me feel smart. like I cant read well... and i am not afraid to admit that. but she would sit up all night with me and let me read to her... or she would read something to me and help me with hours of homework... not just because she knows i need help to get it done, but she knows i would feel so embarrased without her help.
and my sister and my brother in law... but first Brenda, I have always looked up to her. I have always wanted to be just like her. Since I was a tiny little girl having bad dreams and slept in her bed. She has been my Idol. And as time went on she because such an amazing Christan woman. someone who can really inspire you. Someone who wont let you down. I know we have our differences... but she is my best friend. and she fell in love with her highschool sweetheart Mike. my other brother. I dont even think of him as anything less. he is my brother. always has been. their love is inspiring, young, married, God... and they never gave up on eachother. She supported him through school... they have beautiful children.
and the rest of my family... aunts... uncle... and paul. they all are amazing. everyone would drop everything in a second if anyone needed them. Thats how dependable my family is. they will sell their souls to save someone they love. we have family BBQs for any reason. ANY! we are like "its friday... BBQ!" and everyone will show. like 15-20 people. thats a big family gathering... and we do it allll the time.
and cas. my best friend since 9th grade. my sister... I swear we were made to be best friends. No matter what we talk about. we always understand eachother exactly... and think the exact same things. We fall in love at the same time... we get married roughly at the same time... kids wont be too far off either. She is great. We have more memories than i can handle sometimes. We can talk about NOTHING all day and yet pee out pants laughing about it. and when we have hard times... its like she understands me perfectly. like when no one knows what i mean. she knows me. and i know her. its weird... we can say nothing... and know exactly what was meant by it. we have the same sence of humor. we practly were attatched by the hip for 4 years in higschool and then 1 in college.
and of course... Daniel. my husband. The love of my life. the one person who has always made me feel perfect. ALWAYS. He is the smartest, most brilliant person i know... and yet he never has made me feel insignificant or stupid. He is the light of my life. My other half... when i hear everyone i know say "you just need that girls night out. trust me" i dont feel that way. I want to spend everymoment with Daniel.... ever free one. all day long, cuddling... being in love. its amazing... its been amazing for the past 3 years. He is my best friend. He is amazing. I cannot live without him. He is my life. my soul. my everything. and I cannot wait to make him a daddy. He will be a great dad.
like my dad. what an amazing man. A true servant of God. He is the type of guy who would bend over backwords for anyone. Like if he only had a dollar left, and someone needed it... even if he needed it more. he would willingly, without hesitation hand it over in a second flat. From thinking where he started from, he didnt have a perfect life with a picketed fence house, and a perfect family. He created the life he has now, and he fell in love and never gave up on it. Because when I think about it, to loose someone you really love and are going to marry... but never give up on life. and never give up on love like he did. I am amazed at who he is. and how great he is. I wouldnt trade my dad for anything.
and my mom, I really do love my mom. Ya, she gets on my nerves... but we are just girls who are annoying. but she loves me. and she shows me how much she loves me all the time in her own way. She never makes me feel stupid, and she always has made me feel smart. like I cant read well... and i am not afraid to admit that. but she would sit up all night with me and let me read to her... or she would read something to me and help me with hours of homework... not just because she knows i need help to get it done, but she knows i would feel so embarrased without her help.
and my sister and my brother in law... but first Brenda, I have always looked up to her. I have always wanted to be just like her. Since I was a tiny little girl having bad dreams and slept in her bed. She has been my Idol. And as time went on she because such an amazing Christan woman. someone who can really inspire you. Someone who wont let you down. I know we have our differences... but she is my best friend. and she fell in love with her highschool sweetheart Mike. my other brother. I dont even think of him as anything less. he is my brother. always has been. their love is inspiring, young, married, God... and they never gave up on eachother. She supported him through school... they have beautiful children.
and the rest of my family... aunts... uncle... and paul. they all are amazing. everyone would drop everything in a second if anyone needed them. Thats how dependable my family is. they will sell their souls to save someone they love. we have family BBQs for any reason. ANY! we are like "its friday... BBQ!" and everyone will show. like 15-20 people. thats a big family gathering... and we do it allll the time.
and cas. my best friend since 9th grade. my sister... I swear we were made to be best friends. No matter what we talk about. we always understand eachother exactly... and think the exact same things. We fall in love at the same time... we get married roughly at the same time... kids wont be too far off either. She is great. We have more memories than i can handle sometimes. We can talk about NOTHING all day and yet pee out pants laughing about it. and when we have hard times... its like she understands me perfectly. like when no one knows what i mean. she knows me. and i know her. its weird... we can say nothing... and know exactly what was meant by it. we have the same sence of humor. we practly were attatched by the hip for 4 years in higschool and then 1 in college.
and of course... Daniel. my husband. The love of my life. the one person who has always made me feel perfect. ALWAYS. He is the smartest, most brilliant person i know... and yet he never has made me feel insignificant or stupid. He is the light of my life. My other half... when i hear everyone i know say "you just need that girls night out. trust me" i dont feel that way. I want to spend everymoment with Daniel.... ever free one. all day long, cuddling... being in love. its amazing... its been amazing for the past 3 years. He is my best friend. He is amazing. I cannot live without him. He is my life. my soul. my everything. and I cannot wait to make him a daddy. He will be a great dad.
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