Cassandra saved my life

My whole I was never truely liked as a friend. All throughout Elementry school I didnt have any real friends. The only reason I was ever invited to people houses and birthday parties was because their parents made them, I would end up in trouble and go home early.
Then when jr high came around was about the time I became a hard core christian girl. A little bit too hard core if that makes sence. which limited me to the friends I made. none of which were best friends. I did get the chance to make friends who wanted to be around me. but I know it got annoying being my friend, and people wouldnt put up with me most of the time. I was too goody goody but thats who I was. It was the first time in my life that I was invited to peoples house alone, just the two of us. which was great. but not one person was my best friend. I had lots of friends tho. the ones that come and go. when your around your friends but not like talking on the phone all day or anything.
then highschool came and I figured that my life would be the same. have lots of friends but nothing huge. I watched my sister with her bestfriends and I wanted that. but I couldnt achieve it really. I had talked to my friend who said her friend Cassandra was comming to our school and stuff. I finially met Cassandra and became friends, she became bestfriend with my friend steph. then Soccer came around and the three of us clicked. Once Cassandra and I realized just how close we lived to one another we started to hang out alot more. Once Summer came around we became unseperable. We spent literally every waking moment together. I slept at her house or she slept at my house. it was kinda like wehrever we ended up at night. we lived one track away from eachother. It was rare that either of us spent time with someone else. She was exactly what Id been waiting my whole life for. that girl who would be my bestfriend. my equal. never judging, always loving.
We were practlically the same person. for years. 4 years of highschool and a few years of college. we had a small fall out when we both fell in love with our now husbands. we had a hard time at first. it wasnt realy jelousy, but it was confusing for us. not to be eachothers number one anymore. During our seperation we became different people, we let ourselves go for our lovers. once we finally becamse whole again we found our way back into eachothers lives. (all i needed to do was get someone to steal cass car) haha.
so thats my life, Cassandra really did save my life. seriously, I had nothing before. friends who ment little. once who came and went. Its hard to believe in a real relationship when you cant even find one in friends. and once Cas came and we became sisters, tats when we knew it was possible to find our one true loves, if you can have this kind of relationship with someone, we knew exactly who we were looking for to fall in love with. its like we didnt even have to look. cause we have this perfect friendship... and when a guy comes along and starts a relationsihp we already have something to compare it too. and if it doesnt overcome the relationship cas and i have together we could never let ourselves fall in love. We had random boyfriend, non tat stuck because it never outdid what we already had with eachother, once she met David and i met Danie it happened so fast. all because Cassandra came into my life and became my everylasting true bestfriend, I owe her alot.
Cassandra is amazing, anyone who gets to meet her is lucky. she deserves everything. I wish with all my heart I could give her everything she needs. and wants. I wish I could give her children. If I were at a different point in my life, finished having kids already, I would hands down do EVERYTHING in my power to make sure she gets kids. I would be willing to hold her children for her. I know it wouldnt be the same, but it would be something I could do. I wish I could just push a button and make it happen. give her all the blessings she wants in her life. I believe with my whole heart that she will give birth. I really do. It might not be soon, but I just know it.
so thats my blog about my life, and what Cassandra did to it. how she saved it.

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hi, my name is Jamie and Im a blogger.

So I FINALLY went to social security today to get my name changed. Once I get my new social security card I will go to the DMV and change my address and name. and change my name and adress on my Cosmo License. only 2 years later haha. I suck. haha. oops. oh well, at least im doing it right? Im pretty excited actually. I went in... changed the social and walked out Jamie Sparks. crazy. she didnt even ask me for any photo ID. I told her my social number, gave her the marriage certificate and then she just changed it. no questions asked. no wonder its easy to steal peoples identity. I could hav emade up the license.... and then just became someone else.

Mrs. Jamie Le Sparks. thats me. :]

so lately I have been feeling myself ovulate. like for the past few months. like a week and a half after my period I feel my ovaries (i dont know how to spell it) moving and bouncing around. like right now. and I looked up when i would be ovulating (not that it will be exact or anything) but it says i am. but i already knew it from my tummy. and of couse while i was cruzing the waves of ovulation and of course clicked due date. haha. end of august-begining of september. haha. just for you cas. :] haha.