how sweet it is to be loved by you

so... Daniel and i have been talking about where we will be when he does to Grad school... and where he might get a job. And its totally up in the air. and the chances of going home for school and work is slim. which is saddenning but... what matters most id Daniel... so we will wait and see where he gets into grad school... and then when thats over we will see where he gets offers for a job. which could mean we will move even our of state for all of it. which kinda scares me... i am just so used to having family right there all the time. growing up next door to my grandparents. and living down the street from my best friend. thats still how i remember my life growing up. and I want that for my kids. but at the same time... if moving out of state is going to benefit daniel and his job opportunities then its something we will do. I will still get to fly home from time to time. expecially for holidays.

what i want is to have children someday. and get the chance to be a stay at home mom from infant to elementry. then start working when they are in school. Ideally it would be great to live near family and friends. but if its not in the cards, I know it will be hard. but its going to be our life. our family.

Cas and I talk about having kids all the time. its like our favorite topic! haha. we both want kids. I know i cant have them yet... I need to wait even if i dont want to. we decide on names... and everything. haha. Ill have kids in about 4 years... and cas will start as soon as she can. and she can have a boy friend... and then ill have a girl first so they can fallin love when they get older and get married. :] okay! haha. I want three kids.

first boy: Bobby Lawler Sparks
Second boy: Daniel Lawrence Sparks
Third Boy: Brian Gregory Sparks or Gregory Brian Sparks
if i have all boys the first boy will be Robin Andrew Sparks

first girl: Robin Ann Sparks
second girl: Cassandra Carol Sparks (middle name isnt set for sure)
third girl: not sure... hopefully not three girls

So work has been pretty nicely lately.
I love our new manager. she has a really good sence of humor.
so we make fun of eachother alot... which is coollio.

So Cas has been having a hard time down south without me.
I miss her too... I have yet to have a friends like her again.
like... that person you hang out with when your free (and daniels busy)
and we are always in the same place in our lives together.
I wouldnt want another friend like her.
and when your compairing friends to the best best friend.
its like... there is no compairson. ya know?
cause i love her. defenitly.

so i am heading home this Thursday and Friday.
its my daddies birthday!! whoo hoo.

now i will list the food i want to eat so badly
mini-corndogs
french fries
a double quarter pounder
a big mac
fiesta platter with a baja chichen burrito
french fries with ranch
mashed potatoes with gravy
a huge thanksgiving feast
chicken stripps with bbq sauce and ranch
MEXI CASA
some bbq ribs!

alright... signing out.

all my troubles seem so far away

i was reading my old livejournal...


read how Daniel and I fell in love.
Read how i almost lost Daniel for a moment because I was confused and scared.
read when cas and i had our blow up.

crazy stuff. crazy.

so i am feeling alot better today.
still have that cough.
not as extreme of one tho.
and ive missed to much work already.

saturday Ive got to fix someones hair at work.
she had an appt last week on saturday with me and i called out sick.
and she requested me... which i didnt know.
and she got put with someone else.
anyway... she didnt like how it came out.
and i gots to fix it. :]
makes me feel like a good stylist

ok off to work. byeee

sick

now i need to figure out how to put this blog wher someone can read it and find it.

Wonderful Family

I serously have the most wonderful family ever. I cannot believe how amazing my family is sometimes.

like my dad. what an amazing man. A true servant of God. He is the type of guy who would bend over backwords for anyone. Like if he only had a dollar left, and someone needed it... even if he needed it more. he would willingly, without hesitation hand it over in a second flat. From thinking where he started from, he didnt have a perfect life with a picketed fence house, and a perfect family. He created the life he has now, and he fell in love and never gave up on it. Because when I think about it, to loose someone you really love and are going to marry... but never give up on life. and never give up on love like he did. I am amazed at who he is. and how great he is. I wouldnt trade my dad for anything.

and my mom, I really do love my mom. Ya, she gets on my nerves... but we are just girls who are annoying. but she loves me. and she shows me how much she loves me all the time in her own way. She never makes me feel stupid, and she always has made me feel smart. like I cant read well... and i am not afraid to admit that. but she would sit up all night with me and let me read to her... or she would read something to me and help me with hours of homework... not just because she knows i need help to get it done, but she knows i would feel so embarrased without her help.

and my sister and my brother in law... but first Brenda, I have always looked up to her. I have always wanted to be just like her. Since I was a tiny little girl having bad dreams and slept in her bed. She has been my Idol. And as time went on she because such an amazing Christan woman. someone who can really inspire you. Someone who wont let you down. I know we have our differences... but she is my best friend. and she fell in love with her highschool sweetheart Mike. my other brother. I dont even think of him as anything less. he is my brother. always has been. their love is inspiring, young, married, God... and they never gave up on eachother. She supported him through school... they have beautiful children.

and the rest of my family... aunts... uncle... and paul. they all are amazing. everyone would drop everything in a second if anyone needed them. Thats how dependable my family is. they will sell their souls to save someone they love. we have family BBQs for any reason. ANY! we are like "its friday... BBQ!" and everyone will show. like 15-20 people. thats a big family gathering... and we do it allll the time.

and cas. my best friend since 9th grade. my sister... I swear we were made to be best friends. No matter what we talk about. we always understand eachother exactly... and think the exact same things. We fall in love at the same time... we get married roughly at the same time... kids wont be too far off either. She is great. We have more memories than i can handle sometimes. We can talk about NOTHING all day and yet pee out pants laughing about it. and when we have hard times... its like she understands me perfectly. like when no one knows what i mean. she knows me. and i know her. its weird... we can say nothing... and know exactly what was meant by it. we have the same sence of humor. we practly were attatched by the hip for 4 years in higschool and then 1 in college.

and of course... Daniel. my husband. The love of my life. the one person who has always made me feel perfect. ALWAYS. He is the smartest, most brilliant person i know... and yet he never has made me feel insignificant or stupid. He is the light of my life. My other half... when i hear everyone i know say "you just need that girls night out. trust me" i dont feel that way. I want to spend everymoment with Daniel.... ever free one. all day long, cuddling... being in love. its amazing... its been amazing for the past 3 years. He is my best friend. He is amazing. I cannot live without him. He is my life. my soul. my everything. and I cannot wait to make him a daddy. He will be a great dad.