how sweet it is to be loved by you

so... Daniel and i have been talking about where we will be when he does to Grad school... and where he might get a job. And its totally up in the air. and the chances of going home for school and work is slim. which is saddenning but... what matters most id Daniel... so we will wait and see where he gets into grad school... and then when thats over we will see where he gets offers for a job. which could mean we will move even our of state for all of it. which kinda scares me... i am just so used to having family right there all the time. growing up next door to my grandparents. and living down the street from my best friend. thats still how i remember my life growing up. and I want that for my kids. but at the same time... if moving out of state is going to benefit daniel and his job opportunities then its something we will do. I will still get to fly home from time to time. expecially for holidays.

what i want is to have children someday. and get the chance to be a stay at home mom from infant to elementry. then start working when they are in school. Ideally it would be great to live near family and friends. but if its not in the cards, I know it will be hard. but its going to be our life. our family.

Cas and I talk about having kids all the time. its like our favorite topic! haha. we both want kids. I know i cant have them yet... I need to wait even if i dont want to. we decide on names... and everything. haha. Ill have kids in about 4 years... and cas will start as soon as she can. and she can have a boy friend... and then ill have a girl first so they can fallin love when they get older and get married. :] okay! haha. I want three kids.

first boy: Bobby Lawler Sparks
Second boy: Daniel Lawrence Sparks
Third Boy: Brian Gregory Sparks or Gregory Brian Sparks
if i have all boys the first boy will be Robin Andrew Sparks

first girl: Robin Ann Sparks
second girl: Cassandra Carol Sparks (middle name isnt set for sure)
third girl: not sure... hopefully not three girls