hair

so i am growing out my hair. so that evenutally I will have this cute haircut that ive always wanted. something Ic an do curly and straight. I miss my curly hair! I LOVE my curly hair! i always have. but Daniel likes it when i "do" my hair. which really means straighten it. because when i would wear it curly it was never done done. id get the response "are you going to do your hair?" even if i already did... and i know he means nothing by it. and ive always wanted a "bob" ish cut. not a total a-line like posh spice. slightly shorter in the back. but not as layered as hers... or as short. I am really excited.

i was originally going to just grow out my hair with little trimmin and no coloring. but i could not handle it. so i did it red all over. no black and bright red streeks. just red. and then once i get it longer ill do the blonde (or if i cant get blonde something lighter) ontop. and eventually i will have the cut and color. and love it! :] I cant even wait. to have a cut i really love again. nothing too long... nothing too short. just right.

I miss my family. I miss them way alot. WAYYY alot. like more than you even know. Everytime I call and hear their voice, expecially my nephew... that innocent beautiful voice... i just melt down. and I get to see them once a month... ish. haha. and still its just not enough. I am just hopeing and praying Daniel gets into Cal-tech. that way i know he will still be going to a school that he really really wants to. not like ucla... or something lame. because i want to have him go to where he REALLY wants to go to. like the ideal school. its just hard when i get homesick. my family is my other half. and i know he understands that. and i know he would sacrifice what school he goes to for me. but i dont want him to have to. Its hard.

cause well start having kids a few years into grad school. so in about 3-4 years well start having kids. and ideally... i want to live close to my family and Cas. and I want ot be able to stay home and not work. or just work part time.

got to go cut daniels hair.