An Aunt Again

So my sister-in-law is pregnant. which is too freakin exciting! I cant even believe it. Its been less than a year since they have been married and BAM. Preggo. my brother... the one we werent even sure would ever move out of the house... let alone get married... is going to be a father? WHAT? haha. its ammusing. very amusing. but I am very happy for them.

of course i am a tiny bit bitter. I would love to have a kid already, be pregnant. start a family. I mean... i did get married first. but i dont care. who cares! i am happy for them. and to see what a beautiful baby they are going to make.

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So Cas is on another treatments of pregnancy attempts. I am really hopefull again. haha. I think I am just overly excited for the day she calls me and tells me its still a positive test. and watch the pink get darker and darker by the week. She is going to love it. I know it will happen for her. If not this time (which i blame idiots at the hospital for and not her eggs or davids soldiers) then soon enough. I know John and Kate had to do a few tries to get it. haha all eight of those kidlets.

Daniel keeps talking to me about where to go to school. And I am torn. I get pulled between my selfish desire to live in so-cal and where i can have a family soonest. but both of those are selfish. The final decision is his, and his education. and thats how it should be. I want him to go to whatever school is BEST for this education. whatever school is BEST for getting his PHD from in math. I am willing to go across country to the best school for him. We are going to have a family. one day we will start our own family no matter where we live. maybe one place we might start sooner. and maybe another place we might be closer to home. but either way... my home is with Daniel. and i will ave a family with Daniel. wether its tomorrow or in a few years. Daniel is where my life is... he is my home. and he is my family. and our children are going to be beautiful.

so my new place is wonderful. I just love it here. love love. its great. plus daniel bought me a HUGE watermelon today. so i cant wait to cut into it.